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Recently, I'm sort of getting mixed up. More like confused. SPM exam is just around the corner, more like a week left for me to study. I know it's late but still I want to. All I want is to pass all the subjects and get three credits out of it and probably that's all. I wished we, as student here in this country have the option to pick what we want, not forcing us into those which we have no interest at all. Basic will be enough, if some pupils wanted to learn more about it, for like their real interest or future, they could go further study for it. Not some which totally gave up and ditched it.
What's the use if I keep babbling about it. What worst is recently there's a game stuck on my head now. I kept thinking about it, almost every minute. Really wanted to go out right now and buy one. It's hard to let it go. And I've been excessively using PC for nothing. Seriously, once I've on the PC, my mind just gone blank and don't know what to do with it. All I can do is either hearing some songs and musics, watching YouTube videos, refreshing the e-mail pages or even thinking about my future life. Thinking ahead is good but without doing anything in the present which will be meaningless as well. Once I've shut down the PC, I will remembered what to do something in it, you know how fed up I am with this? Not just this but now entirely all the things around me I'm fed up with. Not in the mood to pick up the book at all. I am so not cool and open minded right now. And I don't like myself getting into this kind of condition at all.
When I think back what I've done in this past few years, it's all for determine few things. Not that I intended like this, but realizing what should be confirmed and determined. My English tuition teacher, Ms. Yeap always gave me and her other pupils a great lessons about life. I always learn valuable things from her. Aside that, some thing I realized which all thanks to my friends too. Well, from the very beginning of my high school life, I though it will be a whole new different life. It is but half of it is still the same. Same old boring, meaningless life, going through the same thing like in the Elementary school. Starting 15 years old, my mind have a deep thought about lives. My personalities and attitude may not change but deep in my mind, you can't imagine what I am thinking right now. I'm bet most of my friends are like these. All the years have passed, and I felt like I haven't done anything yet. All things I've done never really achieve anything. I never really put much efforts into them. Not all of them. This is what I want, to achieve the things I've done. My studies, didn't really achieve anything I guess aside those lame subjects. My interest, also never really achieve anything YET. But I've confirmed, if you want to have a good life, you need to think about your future first. What you want to do, interests, and etc. After that, you can go on focus more on those related subjects. There's always a mistake what students did, they eventually enjoy their life and keep on study to get the best results. And in the end, they do not know what kind of interest and life they are pursuing at. I have few friends done that, like just last night, I asked him what kind of future he going for. And he can't decide at all. He told me he wanted to confirmed his results first. You don't just wait for something, you have to do it to earn it. The whole point is, you go find your own future and then at least you have a meaning to live on. It's circle of this happening.
I'm not here to offense, but to say the facts and my opinions. You just sometime need to stop reading a DEAD book and go out and look around the world, your situation! I'm telling you, games and movies made my English better than ever. I'm not lying. Not just that but learned something far more valuables! Until now, I didn't find what I wanted to do in my future. I've dreamed to be a movie editor, a game designer, an animator and anything related to arts. So much option, we can learn multiple but I don't think I'm want there. Myself which already hard to achieve something so I tend to focus one thing at a time which is good enough.
Whatever it is first, I think I can shut my thoughts for awhile and study just to pass those pathetic subjects I'm taking. Not that I have a choice, that headmistress forced to take those subjects. First they let us dropped but suddenly asked us to take it back. So not fair, even the international schools have the choices to choose. It's not that we don't like to study, we just don't have any interest on those at all! Whatever is happen, I will do my best for this SPM for once. For the sake of my future! Like what you said, Deric. Everyone have once a lifetime experience, might as well get on and study for once for this GODDAMNED exam. Haha!
Thanks for reading anyway. I'm not sure you read it all or not. Anyway, all the best to the SPM takers!
3 comments:
First of all, im a novel buff, so i did finish your article. lol.
Anyway, whatever you said is true, numerous teenagers like some of our friends out there blind themselves to study and get as high as possible for their study rank. In the end, they have no idea what's their ambition. If that so, they probably going to spend the rest of their life in depressing << this is true, i read from an article on9.
You shud have arranged your interests and ambitions in order of "least" to "most" since the day you were born, not after SPM blah blah blah.
Some even worse, they search for job according to high salary instead of "want". Tell you la, even if being a writer only earn 1 ringgit a day, i'd still do it since i love it so much.
@Black Aura:
Indeed, after SPM you plan, it's a little rush for every thing. Sure they can decide after that but they will have to think so much about it.
Do the job with high salary? Find job not because of salary only, interest too. Not interested why keep working on something that wasn't meant for you, right?
And my Malay tuition teacher told me, no matter how good is our English here and Singapore, we may never beat those in US. In US, they teach students very relaxing. Not like here, suffering like hell. And after school need to go tuition. Then some more the way students study here is 死读死背. No creative way too. That's why we are so 落后.
That's so true. Look at Jun Meng, i've been notice him since the first day of Form 5, I do not considered him as "smart", he is just lucky that he able to store lots of stuff in his brain.
Whenever PK or LC ask him a question. Let's say Science, it's very obvious that he read it out the similar sentences that he memorized from the book.
Why US can be so modern while most Asia's countries are still being left behind? Yes, your teacher was right. How come i could get 3 A's for UPSR then dropped down to 1 A for PMR and feeling not so interest in studying anymore? It's all because of those lame activities in school which force us to attempt even though we probably have done more than once.
Days by days, everyone will eventually get bored. Unless you're a nerd. There's no such thing of "tuition" in the Western countries. This thing only can be found in Malaysia or Singapore or other part of Asia.
Personally, i think tuition is just a waste of time when school is already there for u. School serves as a rubbish if tuition was there for u.
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